does eg (my ex-girlfriend/best friend) really mean all those awful things she said to me just now? Does she really want me to leave her alone forever? it seemed like she was really getting to like me again, what happened? Abr

I pulled: 4 of spades

You are experiencing stagnation in some area of life.  Retreat and withdrawal as a way of protecting yourself.  Running away from problems leads to only a temporary truce or temporary end to difficulties.   A forced retreat or rest such as in the case of illness or incarceration that causes you to reflect on your past actions.

Small worries, problems. Financial difficulties, personal lows

My advice: If she hurt you really bad, if she is attacking you, don’t contact her. It seems like she has things she needs to deal with.