“i want to worship a/pep because some destruction and chaos is necessary for life and can be helpful, it should be considered sacred not evil”
“i think it could be cool to honor ap/ep because death and decay is natural and should be honored, not shunned”
Might I add that if you’re interested in a Netjeru/Netjeri (it’s sort of unclear which She was thought to be) that literally does “take out the trash” and that is seldom revered or worshiped by modern-day Kemetics, I have Someone I think you may want to consider: